04.18.2020
After so many relapses, I can finally say I’ve fucking had it with dope. It turns literally everyone into a monster. Dope does not discriminate, not for a second. Last night was the worst, most godawful emotional/paranoid time I’ve ever had with it. I hated it. I blacked out/fell asleep for about 12 hours and now I’m trying to implement self care in the way of water, weed, cigarettes, and valium. So far so good. Food comes next, then a shower, then more rest. And a goddamn NA meeting tomorrow night.
